what am i talking about?!

i miss him so much. my heart longs for him. my body misses him. i cannot stop thinking about him. his every smile, laugh, facial expressions, his eyes, his hands, i cannot see them anymore.

yeah, we never ended up together. you know that. because fate doesnt want. but why? oh please. why? but there is one thing fate cannot control. that is when i am with him, in my dreams.

in my dreams, i am his and he is mine. he holds my hands with gentleness and kisses me with tenderness. he hugs me and comforts me when evrything is wrong. then everything seems to be right again. in my dreams, i hear the words “iloveyou” from him, its like the most beautiful music and the sweetest tune you’ll ever hear. he will always say that i am beautiful even when i am at my ugliest. i will not get jealous of the girls going with him, because i know, i am the only girl in his world. in my dreams, he is always with me, because for him, i am his heaven here on earth. i’l be his sweetest drug, that he can never resist, and when im gone, he’ll do anything to bring me back. in my dreams we love each other that words cannot describe, poets cannot put on a poem, musicians cannot compose. in my dreams, he dances me even themusic has already ended. he will sing me a lullaby so that i will have the sweetest dreams ever. in my dreams, we share our dreams and picture ourselves together forever. i am the happiest girl ever, cause he is mine. he’ll laugh at my jokes comforts me in sorrow, shelter me with his love, clothe me his protection, feed me with his hugs and kisses and he’l make his heart a home for me. in my dreams he tells me that he wants me to be his wife and the mother of his children. we grow old together and die with our arms around each other.

see how it hurts? in my dreams i am his. in reality, i am not. in my dreams, he holds and kisses me. but in reality, he never does. then you’ll find yourself wishing, that you’l die soon. its better to sleep forever knowing that you’ll have him in your dreams than to live a life without him at all.