not a happy ending

there is this guy that i liked ever since i started my college days. i mean he really has what it takes to be my man. (wow) but things arent simple for us. at first he is like “ilag” to me because his attention is with someone else then suddenly when he found out that that someone has also someone else, there he lets his door open for someone else to love. (daming someone else!) then the moment i’ve been waiting for came, he told me that he also likes me, and i told him the same, but fate isnt really good for us. a guy, beforehand, came up to me and says he likes me. being this lonely-and-longing-for-some-love-and-care girl, i grabbed the chance to have someone i will love and will love me the same way. though it hurts at first, knowing that i cant have the person i really like and will never like me at all, it is a good thing that this other guy makes me forget those pain even for a while.

but as i was saying, when that “moment” arrived, it makes all things complicated. even for my feelings. i broke up with the other guy telling him that im not ready, when the truth is, i am expecting him to court me.  but being that nicest person, he told me that he doesnt like to do that because the other guy is his friend. and it really sucked and hurted me.

beacause of this guy i learned to sacrifice, even sacrificing the one that i am sure will love me no matter what. i learned that when people are not meant for you, no matter how hard you try they would never ever be meant for you. and no matter how painful it is to me, atleast for once in my life, someone like him liked me. though we never had a happy ending, atleast even for a while, i can sy that he has been mine.

if its not yours, it will never be yours no matter how much you are obsessed with it. but if in case its for you, it will always be for you no matter how often you ignore it.