3rd, 4th, 5th, 6th, 7th, 8th, 9th simbang gabi

grabeee. tagal ko ng d nagpopost. ok ok. hayaan nyo akong ikwento ang mga ngyari saken this past few days. yeahbah!

uhmmm simulan natin sa 3rd ng simbang gabi… well as usual, nagsimba ako. if i am not mistaken ang gospel ay tungkol kay papa joseph at kay mama mary. yun yung nalamang nyang buntis si mama mary. pero dahil napakacool ni papa joseph, pinagisipan niyang mabuti ang nararapat niyang gawin. at tada! tinanggap niya si mama mary kahit ano pa siya. sabi nung pari, we should learn how to love not only the good things but also the bad things about the people we choose to love. yun lang ang naremember ko. hha.

 MOVING ON!

4th day. ay nakuuu. nakalimutan ko yung gospel jan. pano ba naman kasama ko si dyani at si rosi nun. natural nagdadaldalan kami. uhmm. tungkol dun sa future meeting ni dyani kay ninoy. waha. hayyyyyyy…

tpos, nagtest kami sa algebra.. ok lang naman. siguro naman napasa ko yun kahit papano. hay.. sana talaga. waha. uhmmm. yun!

tpos, test sa genchem! sisiw!!! naka 98/100 ako! 98 mistakes!!!! wahaha. lets forget about it. hha.

5th day. last day ng 1st year second sem this year. huh? ah basta. last day sa school before ng christmas break. ok naman. may gift akong natanggap. nyahahaha. yung gospel pala about dun sa visitation ni mama mary dun sa pinsan nyang si elizabeth. nakalimutan ko na yung sermon! hha.

6th day. kmukha nung gospel nung 5th day. if i am not mistaken dito umeksena si bibe. hha. well, kung hindi kasing nakakatawa ng pari niyo yung pari dito, d niyo talaga malalaman yung bibe. hha.

7th day. ay hindi ako nakapagsimba sa HRPC. sayanag. pero may 2nd option pa naman ako, edi magsimba dun sa chapel dito sa barangay namen. nyaha. i will not really consider it as the seventh mass. kasi nung ngsimba ako ng 8th day sa HRPC, infairness, same pari and homily yung nangyari. kaya parang i watched a movie for the second time around. waha. yung homily about dun sa makiling, yung makinis na parte niya, sabi, we were created by the likeness of God kaya dapat we act as God. pero xempre that’s impossible. pero kay God nothing is impossible, kaya we should act good parin. hha. gulo ko! tapos yung rough na part, lahat daw ng tao ikikiskis tau, pagchichismisan, ipupull down, aalilain, pero in the end we end up makinis. we end up strong and beautiful. hha. un na un!

8th day. dats 24. kala ko yung 10 pm na mass na yun. d pa pala. iba pa pala yun. hha. kaya ayun. di ko nakumpleto yung simbang gabi. hha. di rin ako masyadong nakapagfocus sa mass. super open kasi yung area. tapos sa likod pa kami. tapos ang iingay pa nung mga jeep. hayyyy. hha. yun lang.

HAPPY CHRISTMAS! dami kong nakain! harhar.

26, kahapon, gling ako kina starr. reunion ng family nila. grabeh ang daming pips. hha. shytype nga ako eh. nkakahiya. haha!

at ngayon 27. ngparebond ako!!!!!!!!! hha. bongga! labit!

yun na muna. di ko na eedit to ah. pagod pa ko. hehe.

2nd day simbang gabi. :)

grabehh! ang hirap talagang bumangon ng ng alas tres ng umaga! sarap matulog eh. malamig pa. pero worth it naman. kasi pagnagsimba ka na, matututo ka ng mga bagong kaalaman tungkol sa buhay buhay.

halimbawa nalamang ay ang homily ng isa sa mga paborito kong pari. ( nakalimutan ko na ang kanyang pangalan) hha. sabi niya, lahat tayo ay sawa. lahat tayo ay makasalanan. kaya dapat wag lang ang maganda sa isang tao ang dapat gustuhin nating tignan. dapat marunong din tayong tumingin sa mga panget nilang ugali at bigyan natin siloa ng pagkakataon para magbago. sabi pa sa homilya, wag daw natin hayaan ang sarili natin na mabuhay sa nakaraan. lalo na kung masakit yun. kasi lalo lang natin nasasaktan ang sarili natin at lalo lang natin sinasaktan din ang mga nagmamahal sa atin.

wow. ang homily parang ligaw na bala! kahit di para sayo, natatamaan ka! hha. sobrang sapul ako jan. kaya sobrang promise ko kay Bro na lagi kong aalalahanin ang mga sinabi niya saakin.

what am i talking about?!

i miss him so much. my heart longs for him. my body misses him. i cannot stop thinking about him. his every smile, laugh, facial expressions, his eyes, his hands, i cannot see them anymore.

yeah, we never ended up together. you know that. because fate doesnt want. but why? oh please. why? but there is one thing fate cannot control. that is when i am with him, in my dreams.

in my dreams, i am his and he is mine. he holds my hands with gentleness and kisses me with tenderness. he hugs me and comforts me when evrything is wrong. then everything seems to be right again. in my dreams, i hear the words “iloveyou” from him, its like the most beautiful music and the sweetest tune you’ll ever hear. he will always say that i am beautiful even when i am at my ugliest. i will not get jealous of the girls going with him, because i know, i am the only girl in his world. in my dreams, he is always with me, because for him, i am his heaven here on earth. i’l be his sweetest drug, that he can never resist, and when im gone, he’ll do anything to bring me back. in my dreams we love each other that words cannot describe, poets cannot put on a poem, musicians cannot compose. in my dreams, he dances me even themusic has already ended. he will sing me a lullaby so that i will have the sweetest dreams ever. in my dreams, we share our dreams and picture ourselves together forever. i am the happiest girl ever, cause he is mine. he’ll laugh at my jokes comforts me in sorrow, shelter me with his love, clothe me his protection, feed me with his hugs and kisses and he’l make his heart a home for me. in my dreams he tells me that he wants me to be his wife and the mother of his children. we grow old together and die with our arms around each other.

see how it hurts? in my dreams i am his. in reality, i am not. in my dreams, he holds and kisses me. but in reality, he never does. then you’ll find yourself wishing, that you’l die soon. its better to sleep forever knowing that you’ll have him in your dreams than to live a life without him at all.

Simbang gabi — 1st day

yeah. 1 down, 8 to go. sana makompleto ko yung simbang gabi. then i’l make a wish… hmm.. ano kaya? aba xempre yung pinakahihiling ko, MAGING ENGINEER after 5 years and a half! hha! pero sabi nung pare, depende daw sayo kung matutupad ung wish mo. may point naman siya. whats the sense of wishing and hoping and praying if you are not doing anything. diba diba? hha! ah basta, magiging engineer kami ng mga friends ko after 5 years and a half!

goodbye…my edward.

finally, naconvince ko na rin sarili ko na di talaga kami pwede ni “edward”. ang drama no? that’s life. may pagkagaga talaga ako pagdating sa love. hha. hayyyy. i got a 35/100 sa test namen sa geosol kanina. yuck kadiri. its bagsak. kaya dapat seryosohin ko na talaga. pramis na to! hha. no more time for edward na.

well, back to my edward, nagpaalam na siya sakin, it was really painful pero my tears are already tired of flowing, my heart is exhausted, and i am already hurting to the extreme. oo ganun talaga ka’OA yung feeling. kaya i want to make paalam na to him, kasi wala ng patutunguhan to. kasi, i know that he is happy even without me. kasi i want di ko na kaya.

(kahit wag niyo ng basahin to. kadramahan ko lang naman to e)

i’d still want to share my last happy and heartbreaking memories of him: it was 2:00am of November 30 when he called me. at first he was just making kwento of how he’s life has been. and then he asked me if I and “jacob” were fine. i told him that we are together again. then he started confessing lots of things, like he should have courted me after my first break-up with “jacob”. but then “jacob” warned him not to court me or he’ll do something..well u know. then my tears started to flow. at the back of my mind, masakit yung ginawa ni “jacob”. sana masaya ako ngayon with “edward”. pero hindi e. ih sayang talaga yun. then he started making kwento of the girl he is liking. syempre selos to the max ang lola mo. pero di ko naman pinahalata yun. ako pa, plastic ako e. hha. tapos, tinanong niya if i love him daw, syempre sabi ko oo, then he asked me kung gusto ko na ba raw mafall-out-of-love sakanya. sabi ko oo. then he told me that he will not make pakita to me na. iiwasan na daw niya ako. para maforget ko na siya. o diba. ang sakit! then he sings to me the song “fallin” by janno gibbs. he said, that’s he’s song for me daw. hha. so yun. iyak iyak nanaman. basta, ang dami pa nyang songs na kinanta for me. ako naman, cry baby parin. pwede na nga akong magartista e. and then when i said that im sleepy na, he did not let me end the call, sabi niya we’ll just let the call end by itself. kaya ayun tapos may goodnight kiss pa akong natanggap. hha. kilig yet so masakit. cos i know that, that will be the last time that he’ll do that for me.

oh yun. last post ko narin pala to for him. kaya isasagad ko na. hha.

this song, i dedicate for him.

I havent stopped loving you. at wala rin akong balak na tigilin yun. narealize ko lang na, i cant win this battle without you with me. diba nga, love is like a battlefield? i havent stopped wanting you. alam kong ikaw at ikaw lang ang gugustuhin at nanaisin kong makasama forevermore. i havent stopped hoping that you’ll feel the same way too. solb na ko kung kahit sa pangarap ko lang na mahal mo parin ako. i havent stopped dreaming. sa panaginip ko nalang nga ikaw napapasakin, titigilan ko pa ba? i havent stopped wishing. sana pwede pa. sana someday. sana ikaw nalang. i havent stopped thinking that you’re thinking of me too. minsan ba kahit isang segundo lang sa isang araw mo, naalala mo pa ba ako? i havent stopped fallin, fallin inlove with you. ’cause even a thought of you can make me fall deeper in to you.

and lastly, here is a poem i made myself for him.

Half Of My Heart

Half of my heart is in me, cos the other half, i gave it to you.

Half of  my heart is still beating, while the other half has stopped.

Half of my heart is lonely, cos the other half is with you.

Half of my heart is with me, while the other half, i gave it to you.

I saw your heart, it’s only half. I search mine, it’s still half.

Then I saw the other half of your heart with the girl you love, and the other half of my heart you left it behind.

Now, the half of my heart that is with me stops beating. still bleeding.

And the other half is dying. Tell me, how would i still be alive?

 

KAKI. bye-bye na. it was really nice to meet you.

Pilipinas, napano ka na?

kapapanuod ko palang nung documentary about the maguindanao massacre and untill this moment i am still in a dismay condition. who would not be? people now a days do not care about morality–doing what is good and avoiding evil.

57 people were dead. pinagbabaril sila. linibing. may nakita pang mga bangkay ng mga kababaihan na bukas ang pants. 57 families are now in pain. others lost their breadwinners. their loving mother. their sister. their love ones. who would have thought that 57 people were killed just because they want to file the certificate of candidacy of someone they support. 30 of them are journalist who only wants to cover the news but ends up being covered by other journalist. and others, nakasabay lang sa daan, pero napatay parin.

paano mo lalabanan ang isang tao o pamilya na napakamakapangyarihan? paano mo hihingan ng hustisya ang mga taong napatay sa gobyernong sila ang kinakampihan? napakasakit isipin na kung sino pa ang inaasahan mong magpapaunlad ng ating kabuhayan ay sila pa ang maglulugmok satin sa kahirapan. kung sino pa ang dapat ay mahingan nating tulong ay sila pa mismo ang iyong makakalaban. ang hirap tumira sa isang bansa na hindi mo alam ang iyong kinabukasan. marahil ngayon ay buhay ka, pero pano kung bukas matulad ka sa mga minalas na makuhanan ng buhay ng dahil lamang sa pagkamakasarili ng ibang tao?

kilala pa kaya nila si God? may konsenya pa kaya sila? minumulto na kaya sila ng mga pinatay nila? binabagabag na kaya sila ng konsenya nila dahil sa ginawa nila? o marahil ngayon ay manhid na sila?

kung sino man na mapalad na maupo sa kahit anong posisyon sa gobyerno, sana mabubuti ang hangarin nila sa bayan. wag sana nilang unahin ang pansarili nilang kapakanan. sana kahit gaano kahirap, iaahon nila ang nalunod nating Pilipinas. sana hindi sila malula sa kapangyarihan. sana hindi sila kainin ng salapi. sana matulungan nila ang mga higit na nangangailangan. sana balang araw, wala ng tao sa ‘pinas ang gutom, hindi nagaral, at mahirap pa sa daga. sana maayos nila kung ano man ang problema ng mga terorista sa kanila. sana wala ng mangyaring patayan. sana hindi niya iisipin na kumuha sa kaban ng bayan ng kahit isang sentimo lang.

puro SANA. parang sa panaginip lang pwedeng mangyari. may magaayos pa kaya sa sira-sira at marungis nating bayan???

http://news.search.yahoo.com/search/news?p=Maguindanao+Massacre&ei=UTF-8&rd=r2&fr=&c=images

NEW MOON

at last! i have seen the movie na. and like others said, its nakakabitin! hha. pero infairness kay Jacob, he’s sooo damn HOT! like sizzling hot! lol. hindi ko naman ikukwento yung story ng newmoon eh. lahat na ata alam yun. so what i want to talk about is love. more specifically when you are torn between 2 lovers. grabe! mahirap talaga.

the first guy would be Jacob-like. siya yung nagmahal ng sobra pero its unreturned. siya yung gagawin ang lahat for the one he love kahit na alam niyang mababa yung chance na mamahalin din siya. pero minsan, yung mga kagaya ni jacob, sila yung nagreremain as friends lang. wala eh. they dont wanna lose the girl they love right? so even though it hurts like hell, he will still stay, kahit na “friends” lang.

the second is the Edward-like guy. siya yung nagmamahal at minamahal din na sobra pero things are not right for them. inshort “bawal na pag-ibig”. those guys who are like him siguro sila yung laban ng laban kahit walang patutunguhan. sila yung tipo ng tao na icocontinue yung love nila kahit sa huli, eh di talaga pwede.

ikaw? sino pipiliin mo? yung mga taong jacob o edward? hard no? kahit anong pagmamahal ang gawin mo kasi to an edward, it will end all the same–FAILURE. and kahit anong gawin mo you cant love a jacob because youre inlove with an edward. hayyy

do you still remember my not a happy ending story? the guy there, is my edward. no matter how we like each other, if fate doesn’t like us , it will never be the two of us.

not a happy ending

there is this guy that i liked ever since i started my college days. i mean he really has what it takes to be my man. (wow) but things arent simple for us. at first he is like “ilag” to me because his attention is with someone else then suddenly when he found out that that someone has also someone else, there he lets his door open for someone else to love. (daming someone else!) then the moment i’ve been waiting for came, he told me that he also likes me, and i told him the same, but fate isnt really good for us. a guy, beforehand, came up to me and says he likes me. being this lonely-and-longing-for-some-love-and-care girl, i grabbed the chance to have someone i will love and will love me the same way. though it hurts at first, knowing that i cant have the person i really like and will never like me at all, it is a good thing that this other guy makes me forget those pain even for a while.

but as i was saying, when that “moment” arrived, it makes all things complicated. even for my feelings. i broke up with the other guy telling him that im not ready, when the truth is, i am expecting him to court me.  but being that nicest person, he told me that he doesnt like to do that because the other guy is his friend. and it really sucked and hurted me.

beacause of this guy i learned to sacrifice, even sacrificing the one that i am sure will love me no matter what. i learned that when people are not meant for you, no matter how hard you try they would never ever be meant for you. and no matter how painful it is to me, atleast for once in my life, someone like him liked me. though we never had a happy ending, atleast even for a while, i can sy that he has been mine.

if its not yours, it will never be yours no matter how much you are obsessed with it. but if in case its for you, it will always be for you no matter how often you ignore it.

No Ordinary Love

di ba sabi nila, pagmahal mo isang tao, mamahalin mo siya kahit ano pa siya? bakit di ko magawa yun? i am the type of person kasi whose hobby is to daydream. siguro kakadaydream ko, im failing to see that my prince isnt perfect. sa kakapangarap ko sa perfect prince ko, nakakalimutan ko na no matter how beautiful a dream is, it will always remain as a dream that will never happen in my reality.

like for example, your love, parang you want to always see him at his best, tapos pag yung worst na niya pinaguusapan, tagilid ka na. yeah im like that. di naman siguro masama na hilingin na sana mabago mo ung isang tao di ba? na sana wag na siyang mayabang, wag nalang siyang masyadong bilib sa sarili at mga kakayahan niya. sana kahit minsan lang iniisip niya kung ano iisipin ko pag ginagawa niya mga yun. gustong-gusto ko siyang mahalin ng kahit ano pa itsura niya, ugali niya, mga pananaw niya, na kahit siya na ang pinakaweird na taong nakilala ko, okay lang. pero hindi e. di ko magawa. kasi nga may dark side siya. na di ko talaga matanggap.

tinanong ako ng friend ko kanina, bakit daw di kami nagsasama sa school kahit pagbreak time. napaisip ako. siguro kasi di sanay yung sistema ko na kasama siya. yung tipong we are classmates pero, we never talk to each other inside the class. maguusap na nga lang kami pero parang hindi kami. for all of this time na naging parte siya ng buhay ko, bilang lang yung mga araw na magkasama kami. so, who would blame me kung sabihin kong mas masaya talaga ako pag kasama ko mga friends ko?

this really not my ordinary love.worst pa nga to e. dati kasi sa mga past ko, close naman kami. nasasabi ko naman gusto ko sakanila, and sila yung magiinitiate para makasama ako. siguro nasanay akong ganun. kaya ganun. ewan ko. magulo.and to think that im comparing my pasts with him, its really unfair for him. bad.

LIBRARY :)

if you are looking for me. go to the LIBRARY. this place is almost like heaven kasi eh. malamig. napakacozy ng ambiance and most of all di ganun kaingay. di mo maririnig ang mga halkhakan ng mga estudyanteng tumatawid sa daan. mga jeep na kanina pa bumubusina. mga traffic enforcer na pito ng pito. at syempre pa malalayo ka sa polusyon ng hangin. (natural, closed building eh) pero ang pinakamaganda sa lahat, seat near the window, and you’ll see the beauty of what God has given us. yung tipong, kung marunong ka lang magdrawing idodraw mo kung ano nakikita mo. hayyyy.

i like staying at the library kasi dito ko nakukuha yung peace of mind ko. wala akong iisipin kundi yung mga moments na gusto ko. here in the library i found my life. brand new life. na im not really the type of person na gusto ung maiingay na music. (that is what i used to believe) mas masarap palang pakinggan yung mga whispers ng ibang tao, kausap o di mo man kausap. in short, mga mellow na music. here in the library nakakapagfocus ako. pag may naisip ako, yun lang talaga ang iisipin ko. and higit sa lahat, here in the library i found my sanctuary. kahit iwanan ka ng friends mo, the library wont let you feel that you’re alone.

 maybe you are wondering what library im into? its the HOLY ANGEL UNIVERSITY LIBRARY. a place like home.

GIVE ME A CHANCE :X

(sana habang binabasa nyo ung blog ko, iplay nyo to) 

I need you… is all that I can say
But deep inside of me you know
I want you more each day
But time wont let me have the chance
So, Ive got to see you even at a glance

I know its hard for you to see
Exactly how much you mean to me
Since its just a one way street
And Im the only whos on it
No one knows the way but me

Refrain:
I love you… cant you hear me?
Oh, cant you please see through me
Oh, babe I need your love so badly
Its no lie so please believe me
In my heart youll see the real me
You just gotta give me a chance

Since I got that off my chest
I need to let you know is
I really did my best
To keep this feeling inside
But theres just no place to hide
So, please be my love…

I love you… cant you hear me?
Oh, cant you please see through me
Oh, babe I need your love so badly
Its no lie so please believe me
In my heart youll see the real me
You just gotta give me a chance

Give me a chance…

kapapanood ko lang nung PHR Somewhere in My Heart na pinapalabas ngayon sa ABS-CBN. ewan ko. pero parang napakaspecial ng kwento niya saken. siguro kasi at some point nakakarelate ako.

ITS WEIRD NO? how anyone can actually sacrifice for the one they love. paano nila nakakayang saktan ang sarili nila para lamang sa kaligayahan ng mga mahal nila. siguro thats what love is all about. being weird.

minsan kasi we do hilarious things para mapansin ng mga mahal natin. na kahit super nagmumukha na tayong tanga, go parin. wala eh. mahal mo.

minsan we love them sobra kaya paginiwan tayo masakit din na sobra.

minsan nga we dont wanna fall na eh, kaya lang super stubborn ng puso natin. kung ano gusto niya, siyang masusunod. bakit pa kasi nauso yung saying na “follw your heart” ? yan. spoiled. tuloy si heart.

minsan din kahit sobrang sakit na ng ginagawa ng mahal natin sa atin, magtatanga-tangahan nalang tayo, bulag-bulagan para lang din hindi tayo masakatan.

and minsan, napapagisip tayo ng love ng mga di pangkaraniwan na mga bagay. example, pick-up lines. corny na lines. romantic dates. romantic gifts. at kung ano pang romantic para lang mapasaya natin sila. tapos, pagnabigo, we ended up thinking about suicide. we say to ourselves, na life will be pointless pag wala na sila. (and super super mali yun)

its funny how love can change other people. the strong becomes weak. the intelligent becomes stupid. yung mayabang nagiging torpe. minsan nga yung concervative nagiging provocative e. yung walang pera nagiging galante. yung mayaman humirap. at worst, yung ayaw magka-anak, nagkaanak! lol.

pero if ever we fall man, sana saluhin tayo no? if ever we fail, sana magpakita agad yung right guy. if ever we commit ourselves to them na, sana maging true sila. diba. world is so wonderful kahit love lang meron.

ang saya mainlove! nakakabaliw! nakakatakot! nakakabago ng lifestyle. nakakataranta! nakakaexcite! nakakalighten ng buhay. pero higit sa lahat? nakakatuwa na nakakaiyak.

PANALO ULIT!

yessss! panalo ulit GINEBRA! ang ganda ng laban nila with PUREFOODS. sayang di ako nakipagpustahan sa tita ko, may cornetto sana ako. tip to top, SARAP! hha. well’ its my fault naman. i doubted Ginebra’s ability. too bad. kasi tlaga i thought matatalo sila! kalaban kaya nila siana James Yap, Roger Yap, Canaleta, ARTADI, Simon, Raymundo. ang ggaling kaya ng mga yun (opinion ko lang). pero dahil never say die ang team ko. nanalo sila! yeah! 2-0 na! hha. sana mgcontinue. di kaya nmiss ni artadi ang team niya dati? hhe. oh sa FRIDAY OCT 23 may laban sila. goodluck ulit sakanila!

 sabi ng kuya ko, manuod daw kami ng laban nila sa araneta sa december. sana matuloy. pagiipunan ko yun!!!

 nothing beats the kings!

GOODBYE :’(

it is really hard to say goodbye especially to th person who is special to your heart. goodbye is the most painful word that can surely break a lover’s heart. a “goodbye” can break all the promises and tear your soul into pieces.

letting go of someone does not mean you dont love the person anymore, it is just that you realize that something is not working well that is why you take the risk of it to let go. it may be too painful at first, but atleast time will heal it by its own time.

 in every sad ending, there will always be a rainbow of beginnings.

dream :x

nowadays, lagi nalang akong nananaginip. its either masaya or malungkot. pero pinakamagandang panaginip ko kapag nagkakatuluyan kami ng mga crush ko. hha. ansaya grabe. kahit sa panaginip lang kasi, nagiging sau sila and nahahalikan pa.

nung tuesday ng madaling araw, bonggang bonggang nanaginip ako. nagkatuluyan daw kami ng crush ko, itago nalang natin siya sa pangalang JP. hha. well, nakalimutan ko na yung story sa panaginip ko pero ang naalala ko lang eh kami ni JP. may love triangle pa ata nun e. i forgot na kung sino. hha. kya ansaya ng araw ko nun. kasi pagdating ko rin sa skul, nakita ko siya. well, umaasa akong maging classmate ko siya kahit sa isang subject lang. 2nd year palang nman xa, and ako, 1st. so may chances diba? lalo na pareho kami ng major. hha. ewan ko ba. pero parang ang sarap ng feeling na ung crush mo magkakagusto sau. lagi kang blooming, inspired, masipag pumasok. wala ng hihilingin pa. pagmagpepray ka kay God nun, puro pasasalamat nalang maririnig nya. hha. di na yung “sana mapansin nako ni ano..”, sana maging kami ni ano…”, “sana makatabi ko siya sa ano…”, “sana makita ko siya mmya…” puro sana! hha. sabi nila ayaw ni God yung makulit. hha.

 pero kahit panaginip un, atlis naramdaman kong mhal niya ko. atlis may nagmamahal pa pla sakin. (drama?) kahit sa sandaling minuto na napapanaginipan ko siya napasaya niya ng bonggang bongga ang buhay ko. di man maging kami sa reality, solb narin ako. tanggap ko nman na suntok sa buwan talaga siya e. hha.

sge, tulog na ko. finals pa namin sa esdraw tom. let’s pray na hindi na ako malate tom. hha.

It’s just hard to think I’ll never get the chance to say you’re mine.

kabarangay. :D

GINEBRA! GINEBRA! hiyawan ng mga tao pag naglalaro ang mga GINEBRA. pagnaririnig ko yun, parang gusto ko rin pumunta ng araneta para lang makiisa sa mga nagchicheer. but unfortunately for me, i can’t, kasi medyo malayo samen. bata palang ako proud to be kabarangay nako. if i am not mistaken, grade 5 ako nung first kong napanuod ang ginebra. back to back championship non sila. kaya laging masaya sa bahay. dilaw pa ata yung buhok ni mark caguioa nun e. and dun ko rin na-crush si JJ Helterbrand.

kanina, nasa bahay ako ng tita ko. (place where i grew up). believe me, mahabang story. well, i spend my whole day there. and buti nalang, sinabi ng kuya ko na may laban ginebra. kaya aun, nagstay ako ng hanggang ten don. kasi sa bahay, kapamilya sila, (ako rin) pero they dont wanna miss every eksena sa mga teleserye. lalo na yung may bukas pa and lovers in paris. adik! hha. well, back to my story, aun nga, habang chumichibog kami ng adidas, bituka at betamax, pinapanuod namin sila. actually kaming dalawa lang ng kuya ko, pero paminsan-minsan may mga nakikijoin samin pero, titignan lang nila score tapos aalis narin sila.

yung umpisa nung game, hassle, kasi andaming commercials! naubos na namin mga chibog namin, commercials parin. unknowingly, nagsstart na pla yung game. kaya nung pinalabas na nila, 6 mins nalng patapos na ang 1st quarter. tpos sa first quarter naman lumalamang yung san miguel. kaya nakakabadtrip talaga. hha. pero sa 2nd quarter, 3rd nd 4th, napakaganda ng laro nila. nakakaexcite every second. (actually maganda lang kasi lamang gin). hha. pero maganda rin laro ng bagong salta na si villanueva ah. dati ko narin nkikita yun, and naiinis ako sakanya dati kapag kalaban nila gin, kasi ang galing ganling niya. pero d na ngayon. peace na kami. hha. isa pa tong si rich, crush ko yun e. npakagandang decision na nsa gin xa. hha. kaya lang sayang si artadi, tinrade xa. ang galing din nun a plus the fact na nakakashoot na xa in and out ng line and mabilis din siyang gumalaw infairness. well, balita ko nasa purefoods na siya. ano kayang pakiramdam ng ganun? yung dati mong teammates kalabanan mo na? (lets find out sa sunday! hha.) well, san na nga ba ako? nagkaligaw ligaw na nu? ah basta, PANALO ang GINEBRA!

kung may magpapakitang genie sakin, hihilingin kong makasama ang buong ginebra kahit sandaling oras lang. okaya, mapanuod silang naglalaro ng championship sa araneta. and to have pictures with them. solb nako dun. hha. xempre isasama ko yung mahal kong kuya pagnagkachance.

sana this season mapanuod na namin silang LIVE.

wag tayong aayaw sa mga hamon ng buhay. diba nga NEVER SAY DIE?

how to be a good girlfriend :)

how to be a good girlfriend? whoah. nawiwrduhan ako sa sarili ko. baket ko kaya naisipan i first topic to? kasi siguro alam ko sa sarili kong hindi ako mabuting girlfriend. so i need to take notes of how to and at the same time share it with you. hha! (may ganun?)

•  take it slow. this is really necessary kasi if you dont take things slow baka kaagad naman mawala sayo yung partner mo. masakit yun. for example, know him better habang nagcocourt sya. hindi yung kayo na, e nangingilala ka parin. (awts.) sabi nga nila diba, we shouldn’t let our heart over rule ourself, kasi kahit anong gawin mo, magmamadali at magmamadali siya. like yung pagiisip natin, we shouldn’t let it over rule us also. dapat fair. and decide things pag kalmado ka and don’t decide at the height of your emotion. kasi studies show na it will 80% fail. (gawa gawa ko lang yun) and kung magaaway kayo, TAKE IT SLOW. wag yung kaagad break. tapos ilang hours lang kayo ulit? ano yun hobby nyo? talk about it for several times and think about it for many times. kung d na tlaga pwede. edi wala na. and one more thing, couples nowadays are so agressive. yung parang wala ng bukas. pero the most important thing is wag nyong isuko ang bataan ok? kasi super duper sufferings ang kapalit ng unplanned na yun.

• be honest. (awts ulit) this is the most important thing na kailangan natin para magwork yung relationship ntin with our partner. kasi in the end malalaman at malalaman din yang kasinungalingan mo. for example, don’t tell your boyfriend that you are home when the truth is you’re with your friends hanging out and at the same time flirting. di naman ksi natin maalis yung palalandi e, lalo na kung yummy yung guy. hha. kung may nagawa kang kaslanan wag mo ng dagdagan. after all, there’s no point in lying. just lower your pride and apologize.

• tell him what you feel. kung gaano tayo kaclose sa mga friends natin, dapat ganun din tayo sa mga partners natin. we should always let them know kung ano gusto natin, ayaw natin, and opinions natin sa kahit anong bagay. like what we do with our friends. don’t be scared on vocing what you really want and feel, you may argue with it, but eventually you will also be okay. we can be humble baut outspoken at the same time.

• let him live his life. dont over rule him. remember you are just his girlfriend. at pag nasakal yan, iiwan at iiwan ka niya without second thought. let him do whatever he wants, provided dapat alam di nya yung limitations niya. dapat niyang alalahanin na may girlfriend din siya. give him some space. and dont be selfish, he also needs a time for himself.

• dont be annoying. stop acting childish and possessive. minsan kasi talagang nateturn off yung guy s mga partners nilang ganyan. wag kang text ng text kung di namn ganon kaimportante. wag kang praning kung di siya magtext syo. duh. baka wla siyang load or tulog sya.

• jealousy. dont intentionally make him jelous. or kahit yung pabiro lang baka it will lead you to heart break. wag ka din magselos ng bonggang bongga kasi maiinis lalo yung partner mo nun. ahhh basta wag masyadong selosa!

• appreciate him always. be thankful of the things he is doing for you. always tell him how greatful you are to have him. compliment him always. kahit lalaki mga yan, gustong gusto parin nilang nasasabihan ng magaganda about sakanila.

thats ol for today. my brain isn’t working anymore and i am so sleepy.

goodnight. sana natulungan ko kayo.

There are no rules in having a perfect relationship. remember nothing is perfect. we just have to know how to stick with it and know how to make it last.